Goobye to you..

When Josh and I decided to get married it was a big step in our relationship. I knew that things would change, not only in our own relationship but with our friends too. We have been married for the last four months now, and I have loved every minute of it. At times things get hard and stressful especially with school and finals coming to an end. Knowing that I would be having a break I have tried my hardest to reach out to the people who mean the most to me. Friends and family alike.

This week I got a package from my grandparents whom I haven't talked to in years largely due to my mother and her stupidity. Inside of the package was a bunch of pictures from a photo album they had of me when I was a baby. Although the thought was nice it got me thinking about how few and far between it has been since we have talked. It is sad at times to think that I don't talk to my family as much as I would like to. I watch Josh talk to his family once a week and I'm glad to know I am apart of that, but it makes me miss my family that much more.

It also made me realize that I am losing the people I am close with. I feel as if I have tried to reach out, but nothing seems to be reciprocated. I guess people really do change when someone gets married. I am the last person to point fingers, but I have brought this very thing up several times, and as people insist that things will change I assume they will, but that is the problem with people- sometimes things just don't change. What am I supposed to do, get rid of them, delete them from my life. Unfortunately, the real world isn't Facebook, and I can't click them away that easily.